The Mind Of A Dreamer
I think way too much about things most people wouldnt give a second thought to
I wanna be one of those girls youre into. You say theres not many. Im trying as hard as i can. Hoping it works out.
I don’t know why I though we could be okay. I wish I could tell you all the things that are trying to burst their way out.
He is the one and only person i should feel absolutely nothing for, yet every time he puts something sweet as his status, i hope for just a second that its referring to me. Then i remember that thats impossible.
Im taking control of my life. Ive never had this kind of confidence. I finally see my worth. And im not letting anyone tear me down again.
As soon as my head hits the pillow, my mind goes straight to the place i avoid all day.
I sent you a text. Like so many times before, with hope filling me almost to the point of bursting. As soon as i began to accept that u werent replying, ever, your name appeared on my screen. Im feeling faint and my hearts pounding and i cant really breathe, but this is the calmest ive felt since i lost you..
Every time i see him i tell myself im gonna get his number. Then i chicken out :\ One of these days i’ll do it.
Every night I think of all the things I would say if you gave me the chance. I’d tell you how broken I am. How I tried so hard to forget. But these boys aren’t you. They don’t talk like you. Their smiles don’t shine like yours. Their touch doesn’t leave my skin tingling. Their voices don’t calm me. And their kisses don’t leave me speechless, love struck, happy. It’s been months and I miss you every day. Your name doesn’t pop up on my phone anymore. But god I wish it would. I miss your beautiful blue eyes, and that stupid hat you always wore. I miss the random thoughts in your head. I miss you. Come home and say you missed me too.
I’m trying to stick up for myself. I’m so sick of people walking all over me and talking to me however they feel. I want to come off as strong as I know I am. So starting now, I’m putting my foot down.
I think I legitly have feelings for this guy. And I’m not sure I like it.